Addicted to Stress

Somedays, I wonder what I would do if I wasn't constantly stressed. There have been very few times in my life that I've actually experienced a stress-free environment, so I have a hard time thinking about things outside the realm of my stress. So, today when I found a Cowboy Bebop AMV to "Stress" by Jim's Big Ego, I thought it fit how I have been feeling recently pretty well. I posted the lyrics at the end of the blog so you all can enjoy it too. Pretty fun little song from the late 90s, but I'm always behind everything, so maybe you all are too.

Life is a strange little thing. We're born into a cold, cruel world out of a nice, cozy environment and thrust head first into the ins and outs of a very odd world. We go through a very needy phase and after a very short time are forced to realize that we can't get everything that we want when we want it. This would probably be our first life lesson. Even though at this point, we are under a year of age, it's a lesson that sticks with us the rest of our lives. We slowly learn to become independent. We crawl at first and, before you know it, we break out into a full run. From this point on, life never slows down. I know, you think, "But, Kitsune, time moved so slowly when we were young." But despite the feeling of slowly moving time, we were already beginning a journey on a downhill incline. I suppose this is something you realize at about 18 years. Childhood was but a fleeting phase of a (hopefully) much longer life. Then you start a job or college and time amplifies ten fold. Before you know it, you are married with a kid or walking across the stage at graduation (or maybe both). Then, the saps like me, head off to a graduate school or medical school because we can't quite face reality. By the time I graduate, I will have been in school for about 20 years of my life (Kindergarten to vet school graduation). If I live to be 100, that's 1/5 of my life. If I live an average life span, it ends up being about 1/4 of my life. I'm not really sure how I will handle not being in school. It's hard to remember not going to school, and even harder to remember not having the stresses that it places on your life. I may very well show up at a universities steps, begging them to let me sit in the back of a liberal arts class so that I can doodle and design cosplays.

Strange little blog over, I have approximately 35 hours and 30 minutes until my Anatomy Test of doom. I have studied for about 10 hours so far today and still feel no closer to my goal. I hope you've been praying, wishing, blessing, thinking, and/or offering sacrifices for my good luck on the test because I'll really be needing it! ^-~

"Stress" by Big Jim's Ego

I'm Addicted to stress
that's the way that i get things done
if I'm not under pressure then i sleep too long
and i hang around like a bum
i think I'm going nowhere and that makes me nervous
everybody's out to get me but i feel all right
everybody's out to get me but i feel all right
everybody's out to get me but i feel all right
Everybody's thinking 'bout me
its the little things that get you
its the little things that get you when you weren't paying attention
its the little things that get you
its the little things that get you when you weren't paying attention

trying to cut down on my caffeine consumption
so when i get up i just have one cup of coffee
and i like to have another cup of coffee with my breakfast
and on the way to work i like to get a cup of coffee
like the kind of cup of coffee that you get with the donuts
but i never get the donut i just have the cup of coffee
and when i get to work i have a cup of coffee
cause i like to have coffee when I'm talking on the phone
but it usually grows cold and i need to get another cup of coffee
and its lunch, and i have an espresso
and when i get back its not morning anymore so i have
a diet cola and another diet cola
but then I'm feeling fine and I'm feeling pretty sharp
and feeling pretty wired and I'm getting things done
but right about two i get this little tiny migraine
it starts behind my eyes and it moves to the back of my neck
and it moves to the bottom of my spine
but it doesn't get there until 5 or 6 o clock
which is the end of the day so I'm fine!
so I'm fine so I'm fine
except when i have to work late when i have to work late
which i usually do

I'm Addicted to stress
that's the way that i get things done
if I'm not under pressure then i sleep too long
and i hang around like a bum
and i think I'm going nowhere and that makes me nervous
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies thinking about me!

((talking to trumpet player))
hey, how ya doing...
looking good...
you been working out? yeah i can tell...
alright... see ya later...

i love to work i love to run i love to play real hard
i love to steal little things from the grocery store
like a piece of bubble gum or sometimes i just stick
my thumb in a peach and leave it there
i love to work i love to run i love to water-ski snowboard
jet ski skydive parasail hanglide rollerblade mountainbike
bungee jump well i mean i'd love to do these things if i ever had the time
i love to work i love to work i love to workout after work
i love to spend a little time with this woman I'm seeing
except uh, we never get the time to spend together
so we call each other up and we talk about work
but i think id really love is to get up by myself on a tiny little island
in the middle of the ocean with just me a book and a cellular phone
and a personal computer in case something came up
and i'd eat and i'd drink and i'd run and i'd sleep
and i wouldn't do nothing but swim all day
except i don't know how to do laps in the ocean
where there are sharks! where there are sharks! where there are sharks!
and there's this kind of anemone that sticks in your foot
and the poison goes up to your brain and you die
and sand fleas! sand fleas! yuck!
but actually i think would be really relaxing
just me by myself in the middle of the ocean
and thats what i'd really like to do more than anything else
except i'd probably hate it

I'm Addicted to stress
its the way that i get things done
if I'm not under pressure then i sleep too long
and i hang around like a bum
and i think I'm going nowhere and that makes me nervous...
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies thinking about me!

everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies out to get me, but i feel alright
everybodies thinking about me!(x2)