Why Am I Here, Again?

It's times like these when I start to question the real reason that I am in vet school. When it seems that I pour out everything I can possibly give, when I am past the point of exhaustion, when I can't even remember why I signed up to give away my life like I have. Sometimes, it helps me to take a breath and remember all the reasons that I do what I do. So, here they are:

For the animals...
My constant friends and companions regardless of what I do, what I say, or what I am. To them, I owe my gratitude and to them, I pay my debt.





(That's Dexter, my corgi, by the way. <3)

For my family...
They provided me with the best life possible, helping me through school, pushing me to do my best, and letting me know that if I wanted to be something, I could be it. They helped mold me into the person I am, and I am insurmountably thankful to them. I will get through vet school to prove that they were right to believe in me.














For my friends...

Who have all given me gratuitous amounts of joy. I laugh so often in laugh, and I can't help but think that all of them are part of the reason. Always there to cheer me up, cheer me on, and go on a crazy, wonderful adventure.







For my boyfriend...
Who has been part of the best 4 and 1/2 years of my life. He gives me hope when I lose it, hugs when I need them, and can always find a way to put a smile back on my face. I hope to spend the rest of my life with you. I do this for our future.







Lastly, for myself...
I've worked really hard to get here. Even in the times that I wonder why I ever decided to go through this, I know that it is with love and purpose that I pursue this quest. While giving up seems easy, it undermines everything I have struggled for and all the people who have struggled along with me.








And so, I continue to struggle onwards in hopes to someday become a veterinarian. It's hard, ridiculously impossible, at times, but without struggle, the final prize seems pointless. It's heartbreaking sometimes, all things worth keeping are, though. Without pain, there is no joy. Without the night to stifle the day, what does the light mean, afterall.

Organic Chemistry came and went. And so, too, Gross Anatomy will come and go. I will look back on it as a vet and laugh the laugh of the those looking back on a horrible time in their life and knowing they have conquered it. The strength that dwells within us is substantial, and we are all beautiful, strong, and amazing. The only limitation on us is the doubt we find in ourselves.

The Final Countdown: 5 DAYS!!!!!

Sunday: Study butt off for Gross Anatomy....
Monday: Gross Anatomy Final (T_T) (A.K.A.- D Day!!)
Tuesday: Microscopic Anatomy Final (Also, online C.C.E. Final is due.)
Wednesday: Physical Diagnosis Final
Thursday: Immunology Final
Friday-January 9thish= SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!